Issues with Food
About my struggle with eating disorders and body dysmorphia.
Don't be scared, be skinny instead. Focus on the calories and watch as everything else matters less. It makes life easier. Forget your problems.
Your heart will shrink. But so what? Forget your absent father.
You will be very prone to heart attacks for the rest of your life. At least you already hate yourself. At least you already want to die. Too bad you were too chicken to do it yourself.
Your muscles will be eaten away. It hurts. But you tell yourself that it's worth it. That the pain means something. Forget that you were raped.
Your bones will become brittle. You will never go beyond the height you are currently at because of how far you got with this. Sorry you were too short to be a pageant queen.
Your teeth will suffer. Your mom wasted money on braces. I wonder if she knows you're genderfluid.
Wanna be a parent? Tough luck. It's way harder once you've suffered from an eating disorder. Oh, you've tried? You lost one because it was less than half the size it should have been at 5 weeks and your body couldn't handle it? ......Oh well. better luck next time.
Your heart will shrink. But so what? Forget your absent father.
You will be very prone to heart attacks for the rest of your life. At least you already hate yourself. At least you already want to die. Too bad you were too chicken to do it yourself.
Your muscles will be eaten away. It hurts. But you tell yourself that it's worth it. That the pain means something. Forget that you were raped.
Your bones will become brittle. You will never go beyond the height you are currently at because of how far you got with this. Sorry you were too short to be a pageant queen.
Your teeth will suffer. Your mom wasted money on braces. I wonder if she knows you're genderfluid.
Wanna be a parent? Tough luck. It's way harder once you've suffered from an eating disorder. Oh, you've tried? You lost one because it was less than half the size it should have been at 5 weeks and your body couldn't handle it? ......Oh well. better luck next time.
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I am sorry that you went through this. At one point, i entered anorexia and was losing 3kg a week but I ended up sectioned (due to that and other reasons), so I was lucky and I got out of it before I got stuck. xx
That all really sucks. I'm sorry.
thanks
Wow... I have recently gone through alot myself so you're not alone. This is really hard but you can do it. I hope you gwt better soon :)
Thank you, I'm in therapy now so hopefully it helps
OMG I feel so sorry for you. Hope you can get better. I am praying for you
I'm doing a lot better than I was :)
That's great you're in recovery I hope you continue to do well! Cuz ur my friend!
Thank you! I'm actually WAAAYYY better than I was, I'm up to about 1000 calories a day instead of only 400
I'm really sorry all this happened to you! :( No one should have to go through all that!
Feel better!
Thank you, I feel like if I talk about it... it might help someone else at the very least. I'm currently in recovery and doing a bit better.