What You Never Knew...
Happened 2 days ago... on October 16,2014.
You never noticed
It was just moments ago that he had called. He noticed I was crying, and asked me why. I told him about how this one popular girl at school named Brooke had went and posted everywhere, the fact that Iâ€™d had sex with 3 other guys in school, even though I truly honestly didn'tâ€¦and that he was one of the 3 guys. â€œIâ€™ll be there in 2 minutes.â€ He said. â€œOk.â€ I replied. 2 minutes later, he was standing in my doorway I was turned away, and facing my wall. â€œAre you all right? Why are you hiding?â€ He asked. â€œIâ€™m not hiding. I just donâ€™t want anyone to see what Iâ€™m doing right now.â€ I answered. I could hear his footsteps getting closer. Well, Can I see what youâ€™re do-â€œI heard his sentence cut off. I sense he saw the knife in my hand. He saw the blood dripping down my arm. â€œWhy? Why would you do this?â€ He askedâ€¦ tears welling up in his own eyes. I turned to look at him, my own face already soaked with tears, I hugged him tightly. I then began to explain everything to him. I told him about what my birth father had done to me, how my mom left me to go to California, about how my aunt would always criticize me, and a lot of other things he never knew, but I always wanted him to know. By the time I was done, there were tears streaming down his cheeks, and I wiped them away, and said, â€œNo. Donâ€™t cry. Please donâ€™t cry, seeing you cry makes me wanna cry even more. I donâ€™t ever want to see you in pain.â€ He looked up and said,â€ Butâ€¦all those thingsâ€¦ I never knew and now I feel so terrible. I mean, yeah, I knew you weren't ever truly happyâ€¦butâ€¦I never knew whyâ€¦every time I asked, you always told me not to worry about itâ€¦ that it was nothingâ€¦ I canâ€™t believe I never realizedâ€¦â€ I looked at him and said, â€œYou never realized because I never let you. You never noticed I had cuts on my arm, because I always wore long sleeves. No one ever really noticed I was depressed because I would always act as if I was happy,â€¦no matter how much it hurt to smile. I didn't want my friends to have to worry about me. Every day, I come into my room, and I cry my eyes out.â€ He didn't say anything at first, but then he looked into my eyes, and said. â€œ Please. Please donâ€™t hurt you beautiful self anymore.â€ My face instantly turned bright red, and I said, â€œYou think Iâ€™m beautiful?â€ He simply nodded.â€The most beautiful girl in the world.â€ He said. â€œWhy do you like me? Why do you think I'm beautiful?â€ I asked. He replied, â€œI like you for who you are. I love the way you talk, the things you write about, the interests you have, your desires, your passions, your sense of humor, the way you hold your books, the way you walk, they things you read. I love everything about you.â€I stared into his bright blue eyes, until he pulled me into a hug. We hugged for what felt like forever. â€œ So whyâ€™d you never tell me any of this before?â€ He asked while still hugging me. â€œBecause itâ€™s hard to trust someone, when everyone you've ever opened up your heart to, has let you down,pushed you away,and betrayed you.â€ I answered. â€œWell, I would never let you down, push you away or betray you. I swear to you on everything, and I dedicate to you all that I have and I promise you that I will stand right by your side forever and always until the day I die, and even after that.â€œ He said.