This is the real me (read its updated)

Everyone serves a purpose on this planet.
Weather it's worth living or dying for we have yet to find out.
we don't know if that purpose is just to put a smile on a face,
save a million from disease or to light up the world with our talent.
we may not know until it's too late,
we may know the moment before.
But in my case, I have't found purpose and yet i still am searching.
I don't want to be just another causualty,
I want to be remembered,
not as the weird girl in your math class or friends of someone well known
but the one who saved a life,
changed the world.
I know I have a potential to do,
but have no clue where it could be achieved.

Until then, I'll settle for making you smile,
its the key to my internal happy.
Ya' wanna know about me?
I'm a very laid back person I go with the flow I'm not perfect,
never have been, i try my best to be truthful and give 100% in everything I do.
I have a lot of friends, but only a few that i can trust.
I'm not good at opening up to people and i dont like to talk about my personal life. My life is simple but complicated.
I forgive but never forget.
Im pretty chill and down to earth and I love to live life to the fullest.
Im a little bit of a tomboy I like to be spontaneous and be outside,
I love adventures and will do just about any daring thing.
I love to get all dressed up! Im here to please the Lord,
so thats what im gonna do. I’ve been told that I’m very loving,
don’t take advantage of it. I make a lot of mistakes,
and I’m slowly learning from them.
People try to bring me down, but I keep my head high.
They’re not worth it. I don’t give up easily, if I want it..
You best believe I’ll try my hardest to get it. I’m an individual,
I don’t follow people and what they do.
I’m my own person and that’s the way its always going to be.
I’m a little weird sometimes,
I love to have fun,
I love to laugh,
I love to smile.
I'm quiet around people I dont know very well or feel like they are judging me,
but when I'm around my close friends and people im comftorable around I become crazy, and you’ll get used to it, everyone always does.
I'm the one who always gets in trouble for talking to my friends and screaming I love you in the halls.
I’m the girl that dances down the hallways at school, and just all of a sudden starts singing loud in the cafeteria.
Staying up all night with friends laughing our heads off, and getting away for acting outrageous in public areas.
So when i'm super quiet then you know somethings wrong.
Well I lack direction but would settle for anything that makes me happy. .
Music keeps me sane, I don't know why.
Probably the fact that its always been there for me because people weren't.
It gives me the words that make me smile,
helped me meet the friends I have today and is some what of my passion.
I sing my heart out to let out my feelings cause I know no one will listen. Shopping is my get away, it makes me happy.
No lie, I go shopping every week,
Some what of my drug, but its a facinating addiction.
I ride horses, another one of my get aways. It makes me feel free.
I have had a lot of boys treat me wrong, so now I have a tendency to sabbatage any relationship Im getting into. Im terribly insecure.
This is me, and no one is going to change it.
I thought I had my whole life figured out,
but I just recently realized that my life is far from being figured out,
I’m still trying to find myself and who I am exactly.

But yea, I'm the biggest loser, with the biggest smile. (: