Just A Little Something
Chapter 1
Peaches aren't Tasty
I don't like peaches, mangos, pears or kiwi's.
I would rather have a plant than the company of an animal or person.
I read, read, read.
I have a skateboard that I actually use.
I play the guitar and keyboard.
I have the worlds biggest sweet tooth.
I don't like spicy foods all that much.
I hate coffee.
I love tea.
Preferably warm.
Bitter things are nasty.
But I love dark chocolate.
Candy is still the best treat ever.
I scream at the television when I play video games.
Mindless violence is fun.
I create creatures and then draw them out.
My imagination runs wild.
I lose my mind in thought more often than not.
I write poetry.
I have a fear of spiders and heights.
But my crippling fear is of people and the dark.
I am socially awkward.
I don't have many friends.
But the ones I do have are a hoot.
I am an American, though I tend to say a few British words here and there.
Music is the most amazing thing in the world.
I love to paint.
I play football, and American football here and there.
I'm a bit underweight.
I don't have a good memory.
There are large blank spots in my memory.
I do not like large animals.
Loud or abrupt sounds and I don't mix well.
My first instinct is to fight, whether I'm actually in danger or not.
I tend to listen to just about any music genre.
I can make things out of duct tape.
I spell the way I want to spell.
Colour feels naked without the 'U' in it.
I tend to name house hold appliances and furniture.
Candles are amazing.
I make up my own words sometimes.
I still play 'The Floor is Lava'.
I use actual grammar when typing or texting.
I don't want to go to college.
I want to move to a different country when I turn eighteen.
I want to start a garden.
I love flowers.
I don't like the sun.
I love the moon.
I don't like walking down my road at night.
I get to paranoid.
I have anxiety from hell.
Sometimes I here and see things I know aren't there.
Cats are cool.
Ferrets are cooler.
Poke'mon and Digimon were better when they were older.
I used to collect Yu-Gi-Oh cards when I was younger.
I have a weird way of acting.
I can be like a little kid.
I tend to act like an adult.
Sometimes I'm just a brooding teenager.
And sometimes I don't know what I am.
I like trying out strange food combinations.
Curly fries are so tasty.
My favorite food is Cream of Broccoli Soup.
I love vegetables.
I dislike beans.
Bacon is the best food ever.
I'm pansexual and I don't really care what you think.
I don't have a good relationship with my family.
I love to write stories.
I love creating my own worlds then exploring them.
I think it's funny when people get hurt sometimes.
I help people a lot more than people think I do.
I'm great with kids.
I don't like it when people walk behind me.
I don't like things that are unfinished.
I don't like ceramic dolls.
I don't like books without a plot.
I love finding a book, figuring out its a series, and that that was the first book in the series.
I tend to not tell people my problems.
I think I'm a burden to my friends.
I have low self-esteem and low self worth issues.
I'm fidgety and jumpy.
I don't like it when people sneak up behind me.
I don't like small places.
I don't like dark places.
I don't like being alone.
I don't like being in a crowded place.
I get sick a lot.
I have strange mood swings.
I love watching any type of movie.
I still use crayons to colour with.
I like climbing trees.
I rarely cry.
I can take a lot of pain.
I plan on getting a tongue ring before the end of '12.
I have small hands.
I have shaky hands.
I'm terrified of needles.
I, of what I can remember, don't have a pleasant past.
I'm short.
Drawing is wonderful.
Like sucks a lot.
I find religion interesting.
Along with the human mind.
I'm afraid of emptiness.
I don't like not remembering things.
I am political.
Pro-Choice.
Pro-Gay Marriage.
Pro-Marijuana legalization.
I say I don't care what people think, but I'm all the time wondering if they think I'm weird.
Sometimes I think my friends hate me.
I wish I was more confident.
Sometimes I hate me.
I don't let my hopes get to high in fear of having them crushed.
I play on the safe side.
I don't like being in or around cars.
Their moving death machines.
I'm dreadfully sarcastic.
I can speak pig latin.
I don't like being told what to do.
I don't like being babied.
I don't like it when people treat me as if I can't do anything.
I rarely do things right.
I like to break things to relieve stress.
I tend to be a masochist at times.
And I can be sadistic, but very, very rarely.
I hate liars.
I don't like being the first one to start a conversation.
I don't talk to my older sibling.
My two younger siblings and I don't speak much either.
I tend to bite of more than I can chew.
Them call myself an idiot for taking on to much.
I am a hypocrite.
But I can admit it.
I blame myself a lot.
I love the rain.
I can't swim.
I hate water unless I can stand up in it.
Sometimes I'm like a chatter box, other times people forget I'm there.
I love reading cause it takes me to another world.
I love reading cause I don't have to be me.
I constantly over think things.
I over react, but I do it in the privacy of my own mind.
I live in my head.
I usually just take insults without even bothering to do anything about it.
I don't really care what happens to myself.
I love mythology and philosophy.
I tend to live with my head in the clouds.
I don't like camping.
But I do love looking at the stars and constellations.
Sometimes I feel as though I've lost my mind.
I don't like it when I feel out of control with my life.
Sometimes I smoke and get high just so I'm grounded later.
I call being 'Grounded' the time when everything seems real. Because normally, in my life, nothing seems real. Like everything's a dream. And when I get high it makes that feeling more heightened, only I don't feel bad about it, I feel really happy. And after coming down from a high I feel like everything is normal for once.
I'm always tired.
I feel hopeless a lot.
I don't like it when I hear things at night.
I don't like it when it feels like I'm about to collapse.
I don't like eating.
I don't like feeling flithy.
I don't like feeling the sun on my flesh.
I don't like living the life I have.
I don't like dealing with the people I'm bound to by blood.
I don't understand people.
No, I don't like being around people.
I'm not anti-social.
I have friends.
I just don't like being in a crowd of people.
Or meeting a stranger for the first time.
The idea of a nursing home aflame is hilarious to me.
I have a weird point system for hitting or breaking things.
Hitting an old lady with your car 50 points.
Hitting a lady and a baby with your car is 150 point.
I have a morbid sense of humor.
I get to carried away.
Sometimes I sleep to much.
Other times I don't sleep at all.
I hate nightmares.
I can't relax around any person.
I am surprisingly compassionate.
Sometimes I wished I could be a florist.
I also want to be a social worker.
I wish I didn't have so many problems.
I'm tired.
I'm always tired.
I'm good at avoiding things.
I sometimes seem to have ADD.
I don't have good eye sight.
I tend to think I'm forgotten a lot.
I'm not used to attention, so when I have it I act weirdly.
I get confused when emotions come into play.
I like libraries.
I don't like having to put up a brave front.
But I don't like feeling weak and vulnerable.
I am usually waiting for something bad to happen.
I don't easily trust people.
Yes, I have trust issues.
I expect to be let down.
I don't think the poems I write are good.
I don't like the way I am.
I don't like the way I act.
I don't like the fact that I act differently around different people.
I don't like my life.
Or the things I do in it.
I usually do what people tell me without complaint.
I don't like being yelled at.
Sometimes I feel like I'm completely losing my mind.
I want to get a job this year so I don't have to spend time with these people.
I don't like my family.
My family doesn't like me.
I was abused when I was younger.
By my older sister.
She hates me.
I hate my family.
I lie when I tell anyone I love them.
I hate the word love.
I think it's a lie.
I hate the feeling of my own skin.
I hate the way it is.
I hate how it's mine.
And that I can never get it off.
I hate how I can never seem to feel clean.
Even after burning my skin in the shower.
Sometimes I take over forty Aspirin.
And I get really sick.
I punch things.
I punch myself.
I don't like the way I look.
I detest myself.
I'm not good at opening up.
This is my way of venting.
I feel sick around adults.
I don't like being around adults.
They scare me.
My friends scare me sometimes.
I'm afraid of a lot of things.
I hate being startled.
I hate being laughed at.
I hate doctors.
I hate sleeping sometimes.
Other times I love it.
Cause it means I don't have to be here as much.
My life isn't that bad.
I'm just emotional.
I have a lot of scars.
And a lot of them were caused by my older sister.
A lot of them were caused by me as well.
I have thought of suicide.
But there are things I want to do before I die.
I want to go to Russia.
And Japan.
And England.
And Canada.
I wish I wasn't me.
Because it would be easier that way.
I would rather have a plant than the company of an animal or person.
I read, read, read.
I have a skateboard that I actually use.
I play the guitar and keyboard.
I have the worlds biggest sweet tooth.
I don't like spicy foods all that much.
I hate coffee.
I love tea.
Preferably warm.
Bitter things are nasty.
But I love dark chocolate.
Candy is still the best treat ever.
I scream at the television when I play video games.
Mindless violence is fun.
I create creatures and then draw them out.
My imagination runs wild.
I lose my mind in thought more often than not.
I write poetry.
I have a fear of spiders and heights.
But my crippling fear is of people and the dark.
I am socially awkward.
I don't have many friends.
But the ones I do have are a hoot.
I am an American, though I tend to say a few British words here and there.
Music is the most amazing thing in the world.
I love to paint.
I play football, and American football here and there.
I'm a bit underweight.
I don't have a good memory.
There are large blank spots in my memory.
I do not like large animals.
Loud or abrupt sounds and I don't mix well.
My first instinct is to fight, whether I'm actually in danger or not.
I tend to listen to just about any music genre.
I can make things out of duct tape.
I spell the way I want to spell.
Colour feels naked without the 'U' in it.
I tend to name house hold appliances and furniture.
Candles are amazing.
I make up my own words sometimes.
I still play 'The Floor is Lava'.
I use actual grammar when typing or texting.
I don't want to go to college.
I want to move to a different country when I turn eighteen.
I want to start a garden.
I love flowers.
I don't like the sun.
I love the moon.
I don't like walking down my road at night.
I get to paranoid.
I have anxiety from hell.
Sometimes I here and see things I know aren't there.
Cats are cool.
Ferrets are cooler.
Poke'mon and Digimon were better when they were older.
I used to collect Yu-Gi-Oh cards when I was younger.
I have a weird way of acting.
I can be like a little kid.
I tend to act like an adult.
Sometimes I'm just a brooding teenager.
And sometimes I don't know what I am.
I like trying out strange food combinations.
Curly fries are so tasty.
My favorite food is Cream of Broccoli Soup.
I love vegetables.
I dislike beans.
Bacon is the best food ever.
I'm pansexual and I don't really care what you think.
I don't have a good relationship with my family.
I love to write stories.
I love creating my own worlds then exploring them.
I think it's funny when people get hurt sometimes.
I help people a lot more than people think I do.
I'm great with kids.
I don't like it when people walk behind me.
I don't like things that are unfinished.
I don't like ceramic dolls.
I don't like books without a plot.
I love finding a book, figuring out its a series, and that that was the first book in the series.
I tend to not tell people my problems.
I think I'm a burden to my friends.
I have low self-esteem and low self worth issues.
I'm fidgety and jumpy.
I don't like it when people sneak up behind me.
I don't like small places.
I don't like dark places.
I don't like being alone.
I don't like being in a crowded place.
I get sick a lot.
I have strange mood swings.
I love watching any type of movie.
I still use crayons to colour with.
I like climbing trees.
I rarely cry.
I can take a lot of pain.
I plan on getting a tongue ring before the end of '12.
I have small hands.
I have shaky hands.
I'm terrified of needles.
I, of what I can remember, don't have a pleasant past.
I'm short.
Drawing is wonderful.
Like sucks a lot.
I find religion interesting.
Along with the human mind.
I'm afraid of emptiness.
I don't like not remembering things.
I am political.
Pro-Choice.
Pro-Gay Marriage.
Pro-Marijuana legalization.
I say I don't care what people think, but I'm all the time wondering if they think I'm weird.
Sometimes I think my friends hate me.
I wish I was more confident.
Sometimes I hate me.
I don't let my hopes get to high in fear of having them crushed.
I play on the safe side.
I don't like being in or around cars.
Their moving death machines.
I'm dreadfully sarcastic.
I can speak pig latin.
I don't like being told what to do.
I don't like being babied.
I don't like it when people treat me as if I can't do anything.
I rarely do things right.
I like to break things to relieve stress.
I tend to be a masochist at times.
And I can be sadistic, but very, very rarely.
I hate liars.
I don't like being the first one to start a conversation.
I don't talk to my older sibling.
My two younger siblings and I don't speak much either.
I tend to bite of more than I can chew.
Them call myself an idiot for taking on to much.
I am a hypocrite.
But I can admit it.
I blame myself a lot.
I love the rain.
I can't swim.
I hate water unless I can stand up in it.
Sometimes I'm like a chatter box, other times people forget I'm there.
I love reading cause it takes me to another world.
I love reading cause I don't have to be me.
I constantly over think things.
I over react, but I do it in the privacy of my own mind.
I live in my head.
I usually just take insults without even bothering to do anything about it.
I don't really care what happens to myself.
I love mythology and philosophy.
I tend to live with my head in the clouds.
I don't like camping.
But I do love looking at the stars and constellations.
Sometimes I feel as though I've lost my mind.
I don't like it when I feel out of control with my life.
Sometimes I smoke and get high just so I'm grounded later.
I call being 'Grounded' the time when everything seems real. Because normally, in my life, nothing seems real. Like everything's a dream. And when I get high it makes that feeling more heightened, only I don't feel bad about it, I feel really happy. And after coming down from a high I feel like everything is normal for once.
I'm always tired.
I feel hopeless a lot.
I don't like it when I hear things at night.
I don't like it when it feels like I'm about to collapse.
I don't like eating.
I don't like feeling flithy.
I don't like feeling the sun on my flesh.
I don't like living the life I have.
I don't like dealing with the people I'm bound to by blood.
I don't understand people.
No, I don't like being around people.
I'm not anti-social.
I have friends.
I just don't like being in a crowd of people.
Or meeting a stranger for the first time.
The idea of a nursing home aflame is hilarious to me.
I have a weird point system for hitting or breaking things.
Hitting an old lady with your car 50 points.
Hitting a lady and a baby with your car is 150 point.
I have a morbid sense of humor.
I get to carried away.
Sometimes I sleep to much.
Other times I don't sleep at all.
I hate nightmares.
I can't relax around any person.
I am surprisingly compassionate.
Sometimes I wished I could be a florist.
I also want to be a social worker.
I wish I didn't have so many problems.
I'm tired.
I'm always tired.
I'm good at avoiding things.
I sometimes seem to have ADD.
I don't have good eye sight.
I tend to think I'm forgotten a lot.
I'm not used to attention, so when I have it I act weirdly.
I get confused when emotions come into play.
I like libraries.
I don't like having to put up a brave front.
But I don't like feeling weak and vulnerable.
I am usually waiting for something bad to happen.
I don't easily trust people.
Yes, I have trust issues.
I expect to be let down.
I don't think the poems I write are good.
I don't like the way I am.
I don't like the way I act.
I don't like the fact that I act differently around different people.
I don't like my life.
Or the things I do in it.
I usually do what people tell me without complaint.
I don't like being yelled at.
Sometimes I feel like I'm completely losing my mind.
I want to get a job this year so I don't have to spend time with these people.
I don't like my family.
My family doesn't like me.
I was abused when I was younger.
By my older sister.
She hates me.
I hate my family.
I lie when I tell anyone I love them.
I hate the word love.
I think it's a lie.
I hate the feeling of my own skin.
I hate the way it is.
I hate how it's mine.
And that I can never get it off.
I hate how I can never seem to feel clean.
Even after burning my skin in the shower.
Sometimes I take over forty Aspirin.
And I get really sick.
I punch things.
I punch myself.
I don't like the way I look.
I detest myself.
I'm not good at opening up.
This is my way of venting.
I feel sick around adults.
I don't like being around adults.
They scare me.
My friends scare me sometimes.
I'm afraid of a lot of things.
I hate being startled.
I hate being laughed at.
I hate doctors.
I hate sleeping sometimes.
Other times I love it.
Cause it means I don't have to be here as much.
My life isn't that bad.
I'm just emotional.
I have a lot of scars.
And a lot of them were caused by my older sister.
A lot of them were caused by me as well.
I have thought of suicide.
But there are things I want to do before I die.
I want to go to Russia.
And Japan.
And England.
And Canada.
I wish I wasn't me.
Because it would be easier that way.
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ONE HUNDRED EIGHT POUNDS? Good Lord, you weigh about the same as me, and I'm a little 4'11 1/2'' girl. I don't believe that's healthy. Though I guess I shouldn't be talking about being healthy cause I'm the one with cholesterol problems, but still. You need to eat more. Food is good. Food is amazing. Especially chicken. But seriously.
Aww Anthony, it's okay . I feel the exact same way at times. It seems to me that our brains our programmed the same. Except i can tolerate more things than you. That's okay though, everyone is different. I know we have at least one thing in common (;
You're pale and you don't like the sun and when you go out you cover up and you like the moon... are you a vampire? Just kidding. I don't even like vampires that much. They're okay. Not nearly as cool as dragons. Or man-eating unicorns. You seem rather interesting. That sounded kinda creepy. draws fake mustache and smiles creepily
Interesting. . . .
Creepy smile and evil laugh
I don't think you're a burden, at all, I think it's the other way around because I always ask you to entertain me when I'm bored :P
You're...I don't really know. Facinating seems too creepy a word, but you're close. I'm going to message you, you have been warned!
Aww,Tony. We always have good friends online. I love you,in a brother way.
you have quite the personality :D i loved reading about it :3