So I think I may be gay...
...Yeeeah... And no, I'm not joking; I've just noticed that I haven't had a real bf in like... Ever! o.O Most of the posters in my bedroom are of female popstars, with a few Michael Jackson posters and a tiny Eminem poster that you can hardly see among the hordes of Lady Gaga, P!nk, Annie Lennox, Katy Perry, Ke$ha and Madonna posters.
And I've been a huge tomboy for as long as I can remember. As a kid, I would rip Barbie's head off whenever my grandparents brought me one for my birthday. I've always loved violent video games where you blow people's heads off too! >:3 But... About 2 years ago and I actually started to get a bit girly, which shocked most of my family and even myself. o.O And still almost never wear make-up and my hair is always an untidy mess, but I find it fun painting my nails and wearing somewhat girly clothes... Although admittedly most of my clothes are pretty tomboyish, jeans, t-shirts, the works...
I've never had feelings for gals though, I just look up them as role models and, being a girl myself, I find I can relate to them and their music better than the dudes. But I do find most men pretty unattractive, I don't see anything smexy about a six-pack on a man at all... But I think muscular womenz are hot, like wtf? I've had a girl-crush on Lady Gaga for over 2 years now though... And should I find it wrong that I found Gaga smexy as a dude in her new video for You & I...? xD
So, do you think I may in fact be a lesbian...? xD I am not taking this too seriously by the way and I couldn't care less if I am gay or not, my mother wouldn't care either, but my dad may kill me...
I'm just a poor bi-curious 16 year old girl who finds her life confusing and I don't even know who the beep I am in this dark, lonely world! cries
And I've been a huge tomboy for as long as I can remember. As a kid, I would rip Barbie's head off whenever my grandparents brought me one for my birthday. I've always loved violent video games where you blow people's heads off too! >:3 But... About 2 years ago and I actually started to get a bit girly, which shocked most of my family and even myself. o.O And still almost never wear make-up and my hair is always an untidy mess, but I find it fun painting my nails and wearing somewhat girly clothes... Although admittedly most of my clothes are pretty tomboyish, jeans, t-shirts, the works...
I've never had feelings for gals though, I just look up them as role models and, being a girl myself, I find I can relate to them and their music better than the dudes. But I do find most men pretty unattractive, I don't see anything smexy about a six-pack on a man at all... But I think muscular womenz are hot, like wtf? I've had a girl-crush on Lady Gaga for over 2 years now though... And should I find it wrong that I found Gaga smexy as a dude in her new video for You & I...? xD
So, do you think I may in fact be a lesbian...? xD I am not taking this too seriously by the way and I couldn't care less if I am gay or not, my mother wouldn't care either, but my dad may kill me...
I'm just a poor bi-curious 16 year old girl who finds her life confusing and I don't even know who the beep I am in this dark, lonely world! cries
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U r not gay, just tomboyish, like me :)
P.S. I love you too!!! How is everything going? I hope always these amazing Qubblific people have reasured you that your words are kryptonite to all those haters drinking the hatorade that even made you hesitate when you thought you were gay. We love you and that is all that matters!!!
okay, so listen.
If you don't have feelings for girls, than you probably aren't lesbian or bi. But listen to this:
I am so afraid of being a bi or lesbian, because my parent's would not like that. I think it's so nice that you wouldn't mind it. :D Also, I find lots of women attractive too, so that happens to a lot of people. Studies show that women do that a lot, like, fantasize about doing stuff with women. So you inspire me for being cool with it, you're changing the way I think :D
I'm actually really pleased after reading this, I never thought I would inspire anyone about anything, but it's really amazing to hear I've inspired you. :) There really is nothing wrong with being gay, lesbian, bi, etc. and anyone who tells you differently is just too close minded to think outside the box and think that perhaps maybe life isn't so black & white (boy and girl, etc.)
Thanks for inspiring me for inspiring you, lol. :P I actually feel influential now. ^.^
I used to be pretty much like you!
And well, it´s just to wait and let the time show if you´re gay, straight, bi or whatever..
If you´re gay, then good for you!
If not, then that´s great too.
Since it isn´t something you can choose, i believe that there´s nothing to worry about.
Just accept yourself for who you are.
That´s all i can say.
Thanks. :)
I came after 2 boys and I lived in England who created tomboy so I go through the same. I never had barbies I didn't play with G.I. Joe though I played with the English version called Action Man I hav a little sister who belts her voice out and my oldest older brother is gay and has had a serious boyfriend for two years now. I also don't think your gay but if you were that does not effect your writing talent. I still would still admire you even if you were gay. Keep Writing ------ Alice <3
I love you. :3
Heheheh xD ~DIES~
im not sure darth, maybe its just a teen thing orr maybe u r. why dont you try dating a guy or a girl and see if you like it.
that what i did when i was very questioning
Gahh, my bro was on my account again!
Sadly, I don't know any girls at my school who are bi, gay or bi-curious, lol. But I'm going to college next month so... We'll see, lmao! xD
Well, whether you are or not, its fate's decision when the time comes.
O.O uhhh.... slowly backs away plz dont kill me
wait what?
I like you. c:
well im 17 and still decapidating barbies ...
high five >:)
(c) but I think** the confusing thing is totally known ~nods~ so I think you might be Bi. and I am not judgemental xD
lol, I can totally relate to that. xD