Where's My Happily Ever After?
Hey guys. My day went from being pretty good to a depressing hell. I don't know what happened; I was in a good mood, and suddenly I just became all sad, as if reality was crashing down on me after being in an amazing dream. And so, being the person I am, I wrote down how I was feeling. Not only are these my feelings about now, but my feelings about my life. And I feel as if it all sucks.
In daily-shed tears and painful sorrow.
My hopes and dreams are useless illusions
In which I choose to mindlessly follow.
My heart plays tricks on my every day;
I can hardly trust myself, I'll admit.
My goals and plans never go my own way,
And I sit here and cry drops of dark scarlet.
I love her at first, then I don't know at all;
I can't decide on my feelings for her.
I pick myself up only to once more fall;
I just for clarity, my eternal hunger.
Each day is another test for me
In which I have to prove myself strong
Against those who don't want me to be
Who I'm destined to be, to prove me wrong.
All I want is a straight solid shot
At the goals in my life, my targeted dreams.
My passion for success burns white-hot,
But it's not enough, never will it seems.
I'm wandering a path that no one else takes,
Aimlessly walking and walking and walking.
I repeatedly stumble and make mistakes,
And the unknown gods, to I they are mocking.
My life is a book on the eternal shelf,
Each day I live another painful chapter.
I lay here alone and think to myself,
"Where is my happily ever after?"