sorry to bug you.
cutting, but does it make a difference if I can't forgive myself?
fake emo. People call me an atheist. I'm getting fat. My glasses are ugly. My teeth are yellow, no matter how much I brush them. I hate my hair. My dad doesn't want me. My mom already left and pushed me away when I tried to go back into her life. I influence my friends to do things that are bad, like becoming anorexic. (I never was, I just was to depressed to eat sometimes) People call me bi-polar. My family has threatened to send me to a psych ward. Nobody loves me. People have forgiven me for
Not my life, just myself. I complain, and so many people have it worse than me. I do what is wrong when I know it's wrong. I am weird and strange and violent. I get feelings that are very wrong. I am ugly. I am a retard. I am clumsy. I am psychotic. I have to fight myself every day to not follow my ideas. I used to cut, with no regard of how it would make others feel. I still want to, even need to feel the sting of a blade.Because I am weak. I have an addictive personality. Everyone calls me a
It. And my PTS is worse.
Started when I was 3 mom and dad went though BAD divorce. Took my infant bro and hid in closest. Got sent to Texas. I got sent back. From 5-7 my life was HELL. My mom tried to kill me with a knife. She took me to way to many Dr. thinking I had a disease that does not exist. Blamed everything on me. Now my attopted mom diagnosed me with minor ADHD and minor asbergers. I can't trust people. I fake being happy and trusting. 4 off my friends got anorexic trying to get my super skinny figure(born w/
i can't tell on my little brother. i just can't do that.
this is alot that i said but i can't realy describe my life that well. so yea sometimes i hate my life.
wow... thanx 4 sharing, thats not good, u know u can go 2 the cops 4 abuse right? im not saying im gunna tell anyone, but u know u can do that right?
i'm sad alot. i try to be a good person over all but fail. none of the guys i like like me. i turn 16 in august and the friends that i do have probly won't show up at my party. not many people get me. i'm strange but i like that. i like that i can be my self and not care what others think. i have good stuff in life too. i'm creative and very kind to the friends i do have. i'm there for my friends no matter what. i'd die for them.
yea kinda but it could be worse. my mom is totaly mean and my brother hits me for no reason mostly cus hes bored. also nobody cares that he dose that. a few days ago he hit me so hard that the side of my face turned red. mom didn't care and mostly nobody else did either. my family just dosen't get me most of the time. i don't have many friends in real life. one of my best friends is my cat. i fail at school. i've done some bad things. i've hurt people and broke rules. i'm sad.